#446 – I Like to Criticize and Control Things

#468 – I Gave Someone a Finger
October 15, 2017
#265 – The Details Matter
October 15, 2017

An excerpt from Take Every Thought to Prayer – Volume 2 – Prayers to Love Our Neighbor

Dear Father, I must be in charge. I must make the plans. I must make the decisions. I must fuss over the details. I must correct people where they are wrong. I am obsessive compulsive. Everything must be just right. I’m terrified of chaos. I’m terrified of disorder. I’m terrified of confusion. I feel very insecure with the thought that something could go wrong. It would be the end of my life as I know it. It would be horrific. Not knowing what is going to happen next is a hell that is incomprehensible for me. I need to always be prepared. Father, I doubt You will protect me. I doubt You will be there in a crisis. I doubt You will do Your job when the mountains are collapsing and the stars are falling to the earth. Since You aren’t up to the task of protecting me, I need to protect myself. I do that by controlling everything and everyone. Father, please help me to have full confidence in You. May I feel complete safety trusting You with the unknown. You will work everything out for those You have called into Your kingdom. Give me peace that You are the competent God who is watching my back. Maybe then I can give the people around me some peace by my no longer being so critical and controlling. Amen.